sigh.. where do i start. okay lets me start off as saying i am sorry for not updating this daily but sorry i got things to deal with other then just blogging. i only blog when it comes to a point that it needs to be let out. so this is the time that i need to let it out. okay now where do i start. :/.. well my aunt moved in the house with her two son to deal with her other son that is my age and he’s pretty much being stubborn and its leading her to stress out and mom to be all stress out too because idk its a sister thing i guess idk. when mom stress out she lets it out on me -____x pretty lame but i gotta deal with it but that isn’t what is bothering me. let me start out with the good stuff first. so i been pretty happy lately. i never been this happy in my life! i don’t want to jinx myself because like charlie brown says “i think i am afraid to be happy because when i am too happy, something bad always happens.” and its pretty true when it comes to me. i like this guy right now. we known each other for quite a while now. not really quite a while but we known each other for three years. we talked here and there and kept in touch and all that stuff before. until one day we started to talk constantly and then one thing lead to another and some how we started to get feelings for each other and like idk. it just feel so right and feel so good at the same time. he’s something really different from all the rest of them i know for fact. he has morals, he tries hard, he words hard, he does a lot of things. he’s such a sweetheart. he doesn’t have to sweet talk me to get me to blush and that is pretty rare. but yeahh i am happy that it happen and im just gotta enjoy it as long as i can. we’re going to knotts scary farm on the 18th of this month 
. well hopefully we do, but it depends on him if he can get a ride there though so i am hoping and crossing my fingers that he will be able to go. moving on.. me and my ex we are on a bumpy path as of right now. i want to blame it all on my pms but i can’t because we both know its not all its fault but like honestly i care and love her yes but.. sigh. idk maybe she was right. that the arguement we had on sunday morning has changed everything between me and her. at first yeah i guess i didn’t see it until as days went by but now that i see it. it has changed everything between me and her. i still going to keep in touch and be there for her and everything but she knows that when i comes down to one person i will stay loyal and faithful to them. i never cheated and never will cheat on the person i like. sigh.. its pretty rough right now for the both of us but we both know that we will pull through in time and it will only make our friendship stronger. sigh.. all in all i need to keep all these seperated from my school work. i can’t let it get in the way of my school work. i need to do good this year. i want to graduate and make my family pround. i have tried so hard for this year and here it is. i gotta do good. anyways.. i guess thats about it now. all in all i really like this boy. i might sound sprung yes. i’ll admit but eekk. :/ i can’t help it once i fall i fall hard. he makes me really happy and its a good feeling especially for me. i deserve this. through everything i been through i know i deserve this. but anyways.. im outtie thanks for reading. byee.
